I’ve always liked the hymn “I Need Thee Every Hour” but now as I’m reaching adulthood and have to make what feels like a million important decisions, this hymn has taken a new meaning in my heart. I often feel overwhelmed and confused about where I should go and what I should do. The only comfort I have found that is unwavering is the Lord. Because I know that if I put the Lord first and do His will above my own, everything will turn out ok.
Agency is a gift from the Lord and I am thankful for the ability to make my own decisions (as I’m pretty stubborn and therefore put up a fight if I don’t come to things on my own terms). I understand that the Lord wants us to choose to do what is right and come unto Him and that we need our agency to learn and progress (which is a main reason we are here on the earth; to learn and grow so we can become like our heavenly father). But when you have to decide when and where to go to school, what career to pursue, to go on a mission, who to date, who to marry, and important, life-altering decisions like these, I have found it is scary and confusing to desire to trust in the Lord but not being sure how to know which choice He knows to be best.
It is hard not to compare a choice where both sides seem good and like they could be the Lord’s will and not be sure what to choose. It is ok to be scared to choose one due to missing out on opportunities of the other. You don’t want to settle or sell yourself short but you don’t want to end up giving up what was important or the best path. And you don’t have too.
The verse that comes to me when I am struggling with decisions and putting the Lord’s will before my own is Proverbs 3:5-6 which reads, “Trust in the Lord with all thine heart and lean not unto thine own understand. In all thy ways acknowledge Him and He shall direct thy paths.” I am comforted as I read that scripture because I am reminded that if I put my faith and trust in the Lord and rely on Him above man then He will help direct me to where I need to be.
No, I’m probably not going to have the Lord speak with me face to face and tell me what decisions to make, but I do know that I truly need Him every hour. That even in the face of my greatest temptations and my hardest decisions, I can have Heavenly Father and Jesus Christ right beside me if I choose to live the gospel and draw closer to them every day.
I know that Christ lives!! That He loves us so much that He willingly sacrificed himself so that we could be forgiven of our sins. He suffered everything imaginable for us so that He could know how we feel and how to help us. Christ and Heavenly Father are always there! I don’t know where I want to go or what I want to do and I am stressed out by the thought everyday but I do know that if I strive to live the gospel and put aside my will to do God’s will, then I will end up where I need too. I know that the right choice is the one that will bring me closer to my Father in Heaven and help me grow spiritually. As Thomas S Monson said, “May we ever choose the harder right instead of the easier wrong.” 
